In October 2010 I got a traffic accident driving through an eight kilometer long tunnel in the province I worked for in The Netherlands. A black-out. In retrospect, it was the last attempt of my body to wake me up. A final wake-up call to stop with the things I was doing and open up to what was waiting for me. Not an easy process I can tell you. A process that took a long, 13 months, time. Actually it’s still going on.
Without even having noticed it myself and step by step, I was completely out of my (holistic) balance. Yes, I was a manager at that time. It turned out managing my own life was something different. I needed to learn a lot about that. Never giving that process the right attention. So what about being a manager? Not even able to manage your own life. Now I know I am not the only one…
I was out of balance. Physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritual and also causal (imbalance of energy givers and energy drainers. Giving too much and receiving too little. Conclusion? A burn-out and not a small one.
Too late or maybe just in time. In my life so far I discovered that the universe has a fantastic synchronicity. A main insight. This synchronism makes that everything moves and interact with everything else. Miracles in a continuing stream happen around us. You only have to stand still for a moment and take the time to look or even better to look deeper. And this synchronism clearly has to do with me, with us. There are many wanted, and sometimes also unwanted, gifts waiting for us...
The question is, what about this in relation to ourselves? Do we see those wonders, inside and outside of ourselves, and how do we deal with them? If we are too busy or our mind is too hectic, the magic of the moment can completely escape to us.
Synchronicity also works in this way; If one door, wanted or unwanted, closes for you, another door automatically will open itself. A new, until then unknown, space, full of so far unknown chances and opportunities unfolds for you.
Now, looking backwards, I can say that that this accident was not so unfortunate at all. It was at that time and during the period of recovering (or maybe better to say letting go). Synchronicity brought me here, in Asia, to my mission, with a much higher happiness/bliss feeling. In an environment that suits me even more.
And if I look back on my life until now, everything that happened there was necessary to create the person that I am now and to bring or keep me on the life path I much more consciously can walk.
And what the world is thinking of me or what people can read on the internet? Up to the world. I am the only one who knows the real stories and I can laugh (now) about all the interpretations. For me there is nothing to feel or be ashamed of.
If the sun did not rise for me tomorrow… I did it! Living (with a capital “L”) a much more engaged, happy, connected, life and lifestyle. Studying and growing by sharing.
A lot of things and insights were and are part of that process. I only illustrate a couple of them for you: